Poetry: Remembering

When I can’t write
A thought comes, and then it goes                
Where does it go?
I may never know
Imagining things that may not ever happen
But remember I’m just beginning…
I remember when I was pushed around
I remember when people spit on me instead of the ground
I remember when people treated me like nothing
It took me a while to realize I was made of something
I remember when I couldn’t accept myself, me
I always wondered who made me
I remember when I was defenseless
I thought cuz I couldn’t defeat words, I had to use my fists
I remember when people thought because I was quiet I couldn’t fight
I remember when my family had no place to sleep at night
I remember when my mother tried, but not hard enough
I remember when being me was tough
I remember when girls used to hate me
But probably still do
It took me a while to remember these thoughts
With such harsh words and insults
I remember when, people called me fat
I took it all in and people said I would snap
As you can see, I didn’t do that
At least not yet
It took me a while to find out who I am
Now I know who and what I am
I’m Sanaya
Guess what?
Ya poet is here
And she has no type of fear
Cuz it’s a new year

Contributed by SA, age 16